Date: Fri, 22
Sep 2006 03:59:59 -0700
From: bronax
Subject: RE:
George: early Friday AM
To: John
A bright man
with arthritis in the back now, that doesn't fit in anywhere. Price of
perception. I got up and did some
stretching exercises at 3:23 am today. Will try for teaching monday. Today, I work on library in girls old bedroom,
finish my reding of autobio of Sommerset Maugham, published in 1938. Read some more law and
math. Takie my walk indoors at Costco.
Do your
parents have this insomnia problem?
Maybe the fear
is disguised anger as you perceive you aren't really doing what your inner
child wanted to do as an adult to make a living. Think about it.
Don't forget
for daughter the Basic Books Mento Series, Letters To A Young Attorney. Good
Xmass gift.
Give your wife
a hug and tell her how grateful you are for her putting up with you. Apparently
its not in the genes for we silent men to have the women feel grateful for our
putting up with them.
Don't forget,
bosses and management are 'counting' people, and they view all people as a
performance unit they control for some credit or promotion.
Read some more
George Orwell.
What makes your brother so close to the vest and sparse with his words, while you can carry on a
regular conversation? I think living along makes it easier to talk, as you can
react, not just protectively react to people.
Stillness
promotes acceptance of change, and learning.
> [Original
Message]
> From:
John
> To: bronax
> Date:
9/22/2006 3:37:01 AM
> Subject:
George: early Friday AM
>
Hi
George,
>
I'm
working on making a vacation album or albums for George and me. I'm
ordering you the photos you mentioned-- and honored that you want our
picture. I wondered if you got to see the whole collection. I'll learn
more about creating Photo Collections in Shutterfly to make it more
user-friendly for my friends. My daughter got me into this new evolution
of photography. I've been taking photos since I was about 23 years
old-- and so I needed to make the step to digital.
>
> It's
Friday AM, very early. I got up kind of nervously, a bad erratic sleeping
behavior I share with my brother. It's fear, I know. Fear of work,
fear of supervisors, fear of going broke and fear of God knows what
else. I have to believe it developed early since George and I share
this tendency to insomnia. Well, I've made some progress on that
front-- and I am getting more sleep these days. So I decided to use the
4:00 AM wake-up to look at the first two albums and to order some
photos.
>
The fall
semester is underway. I've got a better office now-- my own office.
So I get to spend time with students in privacy. I find myself
hugely relieved to have the individual office. I helped them build
this program under adverse and under-funded conditions and I believe
they still underestimate my role. I am scaling back on my dedication-- doing a good job now but not trying to achieve miracles. But I'm
keeping my good habits in serving the students assigned to me-- all
275 of them. That's actually a number I can manage. I just imagine they'll
try to raise it again if I succeed with this number!
>
Well,
there's my Friday morning work venting session. I appreciate you
listening. Your comment that the bosses victimize the person in the
office least like themself is very true. It's an interesting process
that-- but at least I see it clearly now. I'm less victimized as a
result. A learning process... and thanks for your insights. You're a
very bright man.
>
So, have
a great weekend George. I've got some social events and my brother
always compliments me on my circle of friends in Austin-- and that's a
great part of my life. Going to a football game and a CD release
party-- a friend who plays guitar in a band invited Mona and me.
>
More
later--
>
John
> --
