Friday, November 20, 2015

#8 Bronax (3 July 2006): Quatro Julie

Date: Mon, 03 Jul 2006 05:33:16 -0700
From: bronax

Subject: Quatro Julie.....

Happy pre birth of our independance position. Break away from Britain. That's the spirit.
    
I am dumping yet another recycle trash bag into big blue plastic can at curb. 5:14 am. Dawn not yet arrived. Cat outside. Classical music videos on from our city pbs station, channel 35. Will read at least index of elementary college algebra text I picked up for free in donation box before door of newly renovated Mar Vista Library, Will return and bring back two DVDs I got there and will pick out three others.
Adjusting budget move, watch all those movies I didn't pay to see, and missed
so far. Some good ones.
    
Note how mix of people in our melting pot country is changing. More Asians in the schools, more poverty in central decaying city areas. Jobs changing in character, needing some computer knowledge, middle class dress and behavior, less union manual labor lifetime jobs with benefits. Our auto companies supporting rich life style for managers, forgot major activity: make a good reliable long lasting vehicle to sell. Hence, no sales, and Asian mfg. taking over, working on making good product, improving just a little on basic working platforms, lesson pioneered by Volkswagon for years.
         
Day of meeting family and friends. Eating bad public food: hot dogs, barbeque, hamburgers, potato salad, chips, beer. Hard to factor in good forest food into this, except as 'chasers' for the heavy fat and flour and salt leaden public fare: cheese, dried fish, fruit, soy, walnuts, tomato paste, olive oil, raw colored vegetables, nuts, avacados, berries. That's the goal for this week, jam in some crunchies and some extra movement. Re arrange those sock drawers.
              
My personal treat: I bought a wooden park bench from China for $25.00 on sale at Big Five Sporting Goods Store. Assembly next two days, before heat of afternoon makes me succumb. Make another horizontal storage area next to my outside table underneath the awning in back yard. Home improvement. Time for some winnowing of various tools and things, sucked out from my rusted tool shed which next house door renovators kindly ripped out from my yard for free a month ago.
                       
May just treat myself to a side of ribs, on sale at local market. Aren't we lucky not to be fighting a war on our own land for now? This good fortune not shared by many lands on the planet, where local humans still haven't adopted the civilized approach to living, i.e. helping one's neighbors and making one's local governments function better and more humanely. People still killing one another over ideas, i.e. politics or religions. People still thinking possession of land important to solve local economic or social problems. When will we ever get over this? We are world economy and people with specialists at differing locations. We should all function now as world society and forget this family tribal neighboorhood race religion class juvenilisms. Looking down, we note our feet on our space ship, the earth, where we stand as primates, the big picture, not as caucasians, republicans, christians, africans, asians, third worlders, intellectuals, workers, owners, breeders, growers, etc.
   
Chance is there for us to take one small step for the species this holiday and not just stomp out the campsite again with chauvinistic enthusiam.

Happy Fourth Of July.


Stillness promotes acceptance of change, and learning.


Friday, November 13, 2015

#7 Bronax (21 Jan 2014)-- Be a Bad Writer

Jan 21, 2014

be a bad writer be you fuck everyone else. 
   GB

George,
more interested in writing than cars always liked reading and writing found some stress on wanting to be a "good" writer and had a mixed bag of experiences some success with writing through the years some setbacks and always found your advice to be good this actually feels nice and maybe we have a breakthrough sorry i got angry with you this evening your note seemed impatient putting me down for my facebook activity self-worship as you said funny i had just watched a youtube video about narcissism on youtube but i didnt fit the profile of narcissistic uses they wrote along accounts about themselves assuming everybody to be captivated by every detail of their life 

Reading your 2008 record of some of our emails.   Have a suggestion for an exercise:

        a. don't use any caps or periods.just make jumbled paragraph . make little paragrfaphs by putting some scraps on seperate lines  play with made up  words or  sentances:forbrito, crosnovi,sparbuto, fildashaerino, cocomocobocko etc. fun stuff for you.see what happenes when you abandon alll formal structure and sense.

what it is about science that frightens you? check out 420 Smithsonian channel, 416 Velocity channel, 1229 nat geo wild ( animals). might be interesting adventure for you. I will work on my own stuff, doing some writing for me. 

Watching my second football game today, SF vs. Seattle, in Seattle.Boy are those players laerge, or I am so small. (anything less than 6 ft 6 in and 300  lbs is a shrimpo. 
   
I like watching refurbishing and auctioning of cars and trucks.  I like tools.

Bronax


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Friday, November 6, 2015

#6 Bronax (22 Sept 2006) -- Early Friday AM

Date: Fri, 22 Sep 2006 03:59:59 -0700
From: Bronax
Subject: RE: George: early Friday AM
To: John 

A bright man with arthritis in the back now, that doesn't fit in anywhere. Price of perception.  I got up and did some stretching exercises at 3:23 am today. Will try for teaching monday.  Today, I work on library in girls old bedroom, finish my reding of autobio of Sommerset Maugham,  published in 1938. Read some more law and math. Takie my walk indoors at Costco.
     
Do your parents have this insomnia problem?
     
Maybe the fear is disguised anger as you perceive you aren't really doing what your inner child wanted to do as an adult to make a living. Think about it.

Don't forget for daughter the Basic Books Mento Series, Letters To A Young Attorney. Good Xmass gift.
     
Give your wife a hug and tell her how grateful you are for her putting up with you. Apparently its not in the genes for we silent men to have the women feel grateful for our putting up with them.

Don't forget, bosses and management are 'counting' people, and they view all people as a performance unit they control for some credit or promotion.

Read some more George Orwell.
     
What makes your brother so close to the vest and sparse with his words, while you can carry on a regular conversation? I think living along makes it easier to talk, as you can react, not just protectively react to people.

Stillness promotes acceptance of change, and learning.


> [Original Message]
> From: John 
> To: <bronax@earthlink.net>
> Date: 9/22/2006 3:37:01 AM
> Subject: George: early Friday AM
> 
> Hi George,
> 
> I'm working on making a vacation album or albums for my brother and and me. I'm ordering you the photos you mentioned-- and honored that you want our picture. I wondered if you got to see the whole collection. I'll learn more about creating Photo Collections in Shutterfly to make it more user-friendly for my friends. My daughter got me into this new evolution of photography. I've been taking photos since I was about 23 years old-- and so I needed to make the step to digital.
> 
> It's Friday AM, very early. I got up kind of nervously, a bad erratic sleeping behavior I share with my brother. It's fear, I know. Fear of work, fear of supervisors, fear of going broke and fear of God knows what else. I have to believe it developed early since George and I share this tendency to insomnia with my brother. Well, I've made some progress on that front-- and I am getting more sleep these days. So I decided to use the 4:00 AM wake-up to look at the first two albums and to order some photos.
> 
> The fall semester is underway. I've got a better office now-- my own office. So I get to spend time with students in privacy. I find myself hugely relieved to have the individual office. I helped them
build this program under adverse and under-funded conditions and I believe they still underestimate my role. I am scaling back on my dedication-- doing a good job now but not trying to achieve miracles. But I'm keeping my good habits in serving the students assigned to me-- all 275 of them. That's actually a number I can manage. I just imagine they'll try to raise it again if I succeed with this number!
> 
> Well, there's my Friday morning work venting session. I appreciate
you listening. Your comment that the bosses victimize the person in the office least like themself is very true. It's an interesting process that-- but at least I see it clearly now. I'm less victimized as a result. A learning process... and thanks for your insights.

> You're a very bright man.
> 
> So, have a great weekend George. I've got some social events and my brother always compliments me on my circle of friends in Austin-- and that's a great part of my life. Going to a football game and a CD release party-- a friend who plays guitar in a band invited Mona and me.
> 
> More later--
> 
> John

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