Friday, January 6, 2017

#29 Heavy Nut Bag... (Incorrectly dated -- 1 Jan 2002, circa '09 emails)

From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Jonh/Mona
Date: Mon, 31 Dec 2001 23:10:47 -0800
X-Priority: 3

From one nut to another:

      THANKS FOR HEAVY NUT BAG I will savor them slowly. Local color lights up grey life. Nut meats make life bearable.   Thanks for gift.
George B


From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Re: George: thanks!-- paper writing
Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:03:42 -0800
X-Priority: 3

Goal: answer all emails same day as received.
Try early in the am, or late in the pm. Just takes half an hour.
Good disclipine, and doing so keeps you writing, not the
artifical thing of academic  papers, but the inside stuff
from the braino and heart.

Remember, school papers are just talking about something,
in written words, not spoken words. I suggest you write all
papers as if they were speaches, and read them aloud to
make sure they are punchy and interesting.

George



From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Poem retred
Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:33:40 -0800
X-Priority: 3

I first came up with these thoughts to include in my xmass report which I enclose in xmass card. On second reading, it appeared too dreary, when xmass is expected to be upbeat and cheery. With second or third reading and thinking, it was an actual product of my mind, so I should acknowledge it. You seem to be more open to just random shafts of mental light, so I shared it with you. This could be seen as a compliment here.
George


From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Idea
Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:33:53 -0800
X-Priority: 3

Sign up for Twitter, and send yourself some Tweets. Paragraph one liners as fake Cliff notes for your novel, then read them and write thoughts to put in your ideas, or someone elses and you, to show literary work developing in three or more dimensions of human consideration and action, with fluid sweeps in time, like movie Last Year At Marienbad.
George
-     

Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:15:56 -0800
From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
Subject: Telephone call to unknown number
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
X-Priority: 3

i am not sure I have your tel number.
Thanks for the call.
I am working on learning the non intuitive new cell phone I got when I lost the old one.
  In my entire life, I have now lost two important things:
          a. My Passport, following my return from Canada with former
              girl friend to celebrate her parents' 50th wedding anniversary
          b. My cell phone.
What will be next?     Everything.

I am watching the Star Wars Story, about the birth of the male, the
hero ( at puberty), who realizes, if he wants to mature, suddenly
that his Father is smaller, more worn, and less wonderful than he
formerly thought. I make these realizations and do a lot of crying
at these long buried realizations:
          a. My Father allowed me close only in death. He is buried
              in one of my court suits, as he possessed no suit when he
              died.
          b. My Mother, seperated early on from her parents, alone
              in a foreign country, speaking a foreign language
              stood by me and took care of me until I learned to do it
              for myself. She finally told me that when I was a baby,
              and got whimpery and fussy, she used to pass her hand
              through the crib, so I could curl around it, just like my
              cat Raya does today on my couch. To some extent, I have
              prohibited my cat from growing up.
          c. My children can never grow up until I let them go.
I got your call. Thanks for thinking of me.
Why cannot you not send emails? Computer down?
Soon we will all have web cams and be able to make virtual visits and
social and business calls. Technology has speeded up life.

I will meet with your brother soon. We origninally picked super bowl
sunday, but will pick another date so we can watch the game .
Probably we won't watch the game together. I usually watch it with
one of my old law workmates, Richard, who lives in Long Beach
with his teacher wife, Therese, and 5 cats. He has a sister Karen in
Cleveland, and a Dad in a old folk's home there. We are all headed
for the old folks home. What's your plans?
     George


Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:17:49 -0800
From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
Subject: Bookstore | Blurb
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
X-Priority: 3

Check out this, and LULU.com
for self publishing at reasonable price.
Happy New Year.
barely 40 degress here, and clear. Not raining.
Our planned xmass went to hell: grandparents, the mother of my ex wife
had heart attack. 
My big tasks for today: taking shower, and visiting Costco to pick up some canned cat food and some fish fillets. Mostly watching tv and reading.
Lots of people weathered out, like those in Tennessee, buried by slag.
Near here, Corona, divorced man goes nuts and shoots up and burns up
grandparents of ex wife at their house, then returns home to brother's house
in Sylmar and shoots himself. Divorce not for wimps. I barely survived mine, but I had good sense not to hurt anyone.
George


From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Re: George: back in Austin
Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:23:24 -0800
X-Priority: 3

Nice compliment.

Good luck with your new adventure.

My computer insists on dating my emails, Jan. 1, 2002, so they
appear at the BOTTOM of your email list. Look for them there.

Soon you will be a top writer and commentator. Design an
on line writing and information research for your students, as your first media  project. Mr. Academic. Like Mr. Moto of old
movie serials.

I still think Twilight Zone episodes are best on TV.

I am fated, to be dated. Its in the genes, or jeans.

George B                      Mr. Bronax



----- Original Message ----- From: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
To: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
Sent: Sunday, March 15, 2009 7:56 PM
Subject: George: back in Austin



Hi George,

We did see some of the tourist sites in DC. And we got some photos.
Actually just sent them your way-- electronically. Hopefully you can
view them.

I'm on a writing binge of late-- some of pedestrian stuff for a class
I'm taking related to Hollywood Cineman.

I've been accepted to Graduate School in Radio-TV-Film for fall. I'm
taking the big plunge and I'm going to retire from advising! I am
scared by the change but feels pretty necessary.

Writing will be on the Agenda now. And I owe your influence some
credit in these matters. You've helped me get some energy back for
pursuing the keyboard activities. I never really stopped on the
keyboard-- but much on my day is devoted to emailing to students,
fulfilling the requirements of the job.

So, big changes are afoot.

Did you know we have exchanged emails for 6 years now! I keep track
of these things because I value your communiques. I missed your words
of wisdom the last several months.

Well, I took on this email a bit late and so I'll sign-off.

Have a great Monday!

John

Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:23:31 -0800
From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
Subject: Self Publishing - Lulu.com
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
X-Priority: 3

Publish your book, or an outline of it, or shortened Reader's Digest Condensed Books type thingie at Lulu.com
    George  I am reading the Chinese Tao book now. Kick butt with the Buddha the first big self inprover.
http://www.lulu.com/
Self Publishing - Lulu.com


From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Updates
Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:26:07 -0800
X-Priority: 3


This has worked for me in time of economic trouble:

1. Look to another work area you hadn't before considered.          Don't have to actually switch careers, just the looking is good. 2. Find some poor people food banks and cruise in once a week or    month and pick up some free food. Check Food Banks on internet. 3. Buy only things on sale. 4. Check out thrift stores. I bought suits in one in Hollywood for years,    then had my local tailor fit them to me for $35.00. Cheaper than a new    suit. I wore out all my suits going to courts. 5. Change your behavior in some regards. 6. Don't eat out. 7. Rent movies, don't go to any of them. 8. Get familiar with your tv, especially PBS stations. 9. Take some free tours with the family, dropping off your business card
   quietly during the trip: manufacturing companies, tv studios, anything    you can find. Internet should help here. 10. Look for dented can specials. 11. Learn to cook Spam. 12. Replay your student life style, where anything you can use is ok.
George



From: "George" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Inner beings
Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:27:28 -0800
X-Priority: 3

i have spent most of my life in a state of dread. This is a result of inadequate fathering as a child.
We all have sometings to work on.........

George



From: "George Bronax" <bronax@verizon.net>
To: "John Theofanis" <jtheofanis@austin.rr.com>
Subject: Reference
Date: Tue, 01 Jan 2002 00:28:11 -0800
X-Priority: 3

Statement was reference to your last several communications.

Too accepting of status quo........

I am still struggling with my own coping mechanisms, fantasy, politeness,
smart talking, feeble attempts at self protection.

I think we all have some such history adopted when we were children
and powerless and ignorant of other means. We just used what worked
at the time, then made it a habit.

With shrinking economy I have concern your bosses will compare your
salary and benefits with those of a beginner, and give the job to a beginner.
What happenes to the actual students probably won't be more important
than reducing their budgets, which is their performance measurement.


George

#28 Socialization (9 Sept 2009)

Subject: George: socialization!
Cc:
Bcc:

9/09/09


John:
You're right about socialization. I really struggle with relaxing at
night-- just going to sleep. My eyes often pop open at 3:00 AM--
especially if I have an appt. to see somebody, have to go to work, or
even have to attend a class in the morning. It's nuts-- I mean why
would I worry about such mild challenges as meeting with somebody who
likes me. I feel like the 3 year old boy learned all these fears and
they seem encased in layers of concrete and steel.
But maybe there's a way!
Thanks for sharing your insights! You're a super bright guy with a
talent for language!


Bronax:
Thanks for honesty. Where do you come by such fear of hand tools? Time to look for local seniors woodworking and tool usage learning courses. Check out the Y and senior centers. Its just knowledge to flatten out some psychological background something is going to get me fears. We all have them about somethings.

Your Dad is a psychologist, correct? Maybe you just learned his phobias which drove him into working with tests and talking and reading, rather than making things or repairing or designing things with his hands and tools. Worth exploring. I believe any time w experience some unalloyed strong emotion, its like finding pure metal flakes in our buffed up social selves, like finding gold flakes in the dirt clods on our properties. I open up and try to find the source of some of my hates, fears, pruderies, false believs, disgusts, etc. One thing I did learn from my years of therapy, that I have now my very own little therapist sitting in my forebrain looking at all the detrius that flows by my mental river out of the surface of my socialization.


>----- Original Message ----- 
From: "John " 
>To: "George Bronax"
>Sent: Friday, September 04, 2009 3:47 PM
>Subject: Hi George: in the techno-spirit .... Book Bash
> 

John:
In the spirit of new technologies I just sent you my latest blog entry-- about my Toastmaster speech last night.

Bronax:
See... you have decided to make speechifying and talking
>in public one of your activities, not rewiring a circuit board.
>> 

John
You are very intuitive about the new world of communication. I agree with you-- and I am not automatically inclined to embrace technology. In fact, I have a technophobic personality, a suspicion of all things mechanical. Of course, the internet often involves no moving parts, other than hitting a typewriter keyboard, so it's less threatening. Still I bring bad habits over from not doing well with wrenches, hammers, or God forbid... a power saw!
>        
Bronax:
Who else in your family had this fear of hand tools. Do
>you have any members with cut off fingers or hands?
>> 
John:
I'm four days into retirement-- and making some slow progress! I'm
quite busy with the classes but it does seem to be getting me into the writing frame of mind.
I'm expecting Mona any minute now.
How are things in your neck of the woods. The terrible fires must get your attention. You're on the ocean side and I think the fires are north of LA, correct? Has a very apocalyptic feel to it. We do seem to be living in the future.
>        
Bronax:
Actually, we are always living in the present, even when we are studying the past. Your statement seems to connote some disbelief in the reality of the present, a sense of unrealness.I feel the same after the change in my status from school teacher and lawyer to mensa shut in old fart. Working on establishing my daily schedule so I get the reward of planning some things and feeling happy that I got some of them done. I have learned crying, like a female adolescent, probably the result of my hormone's settling about, so that I cry and say I miss that when there is a particularly nuzzly male female tenderness close relating. But, I don't miss it enought to go out and start dating again. Cat is good enough for me just now.
> 
John:
>>I seem to like the desktop computer, I know that dates me. I have a
>>cell phone but rarely use it. I own an IPOD actually-- my mother
>>found one and gave it to me! It has 5000 songs on it-- somebody
>>else's music! I've been learning about Radio lately-- and that's an
>>interesting, though brief history. One of the radio Godfathers, David
>>Sarnoff, was eager to get TV going and so radio had a brief heyday of
>>being the big boy on the block from 1925-1950!
>        
Bronax:
Advance of technology just allows more and people to do more and more things involving themselves, faster and faster. We still do all the same old stuff: eat and shit, fuck and suck, sit and run, and look for novelty, and talk to one another. Its what we do as a species based on our bio dimension as a smart primate.
>> 
John:
>>Hope your Friday is going well!

Bronax:
>      Very hot. I watched a lot of good Speed channel,
>extreme rides, AMerican LeMans sport cars racing, special
>cars that have jet engines mounted on Semi Trucks and pick up
>trucks, and one Swiss firm has made the actual James Bond
>aquacar one can drive off the road into the water, pull out
>masks from the dash, and carry on under water with two
>propellers. Cool. Pick up guy really puts on a show at night
>drag meets: he has rimed end of jets with pipes with holes
>into which he can pump diesel fuel, to create huge roaring
>blasts of fire out back of his engines. He goes from zero
>to 300 or so mph in quarter mile. Smok'n. Most posh ride
>is new Bugati. Two million for 12441 hoursepower. Two v8s
>put onto one crank case, and then fed by two turbochargers.
>In cockpit all butter soft sewn leather, etc. Super Cars.
>Take advantage of your experiences of you insides. Maybe
>you were frightened by sound of some neighbor building something in
>his house or garage, or workers putting up
>house or other building near you house as a child, or maybe
>your Dad or Mom took you to a building site when you were
>little and this frightened you, or maybe its a metaphore for
>some family fear you picked up. Worth exploring.
>    
Don't forget to look as a stranger on your academic adventure,
>what it will get you, how is is beginning, middle, and ending
>going to look, etc. Changing your daily rut, has made your
>insides temporarily open for business.

 I had dinner with old law buddy. He and wife are renting
>a house near Target near me, after he sold first his LA house
>then moved to Minnesota where he was raised to buy another
>house, then he sold that one and has returned. His French wife and
>her middle son just came back from super trip to Tibet
>with excellent photos we saw over dinner. He still plays bridge and
>tennis, and she works out at a senior center. Their bodies show it.
>They look good, just a little more worn than they looked like when I
>saw them last, several years ago. Meanwhile I am '
>turning into a frog. I think I have slowed his down a little.
>    What is your degee goal? Can you get a job with this stuff?
>> 

>> 
Bronax:
>>>    Good luck with the books. I recommend some light showing
>>>experience with real life during all this Grad Grind, by
>>>finding a part time or intern job in an allied field, to give
>>>you experience about the actual living of the life you are now
>>>studying to prepare for. What is your degree target? What type
>>>of work can you get with it? Remember, print newspapers and
>>>magazines are passing into electronic existence now. With
>>>development of hand held communicaion devices, IPODs and
>>>phones which have still and video camera capacity, internet
>>>wireless circuits, etc. amateur news reporting, instantly, is
>>>now the new standard from all over the world. We are now
>>>a true global world of noisy people reporting on the net
>>>about ourselves. Days of the stay at home solitary writer
>>>are ending. Most were correspondents for various print
>>>vehicles, newspapers, magazines, news services, movie
>>>and television studios, etc.
>>>      Whole new modern world out there there, and you are set
>>>to reveal it to everyone. Congrats.
>>>      How is your wife the programmer taking all this? And your
>>>daughter, the new Mom?
>>>      George Bronax
>> 
>> 

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